Beyond the waves

My dear Amma,

This morning I told my love that although I had been chanting your mantras and receiving your blessings fairly regularly these past two years, my mind is still disturbed and unclean, it has not become any cleaner.He told me that I needed to do more, take more action, not only prayer.

Is it making excuses Amma, to say that I am very weak and powerless to do anything but pray? That's how I feel sometimes.

Amma, I;ve been experiencing so many feelings lately. Yesterday, I surrendered those feelings to You. This morning again, so many feelings were shaking me. I tried very hard to hold on to You. Suddenly everything became very calm and still.

Feelings are temporary, I realise, Amma. Whether good or bad, they disturb us and toss us around. But beyond them there is an ocean of bliss. As long as I am in the shallows, I am tossed around by differnt feelings. I enjoy some, I dislike others. But in the end. I realise they are all the same. They all only serve to distract me from going deeper within; where there are no waves or disturbances, only Bliss and Love. That is You, Amma.

Amma,take me beyond the shallows; help me to came to You.

With love and gratitude,

Your loving daughter,

Vidya