My dear Amma,
It rained most of last night. The earth looks damp and green. There's only the sound of birdsong in the air. It's quiet and restful all around.
My mind reflects the outer world, and is very much at peace today too.
I'm beginning to understand the nature of my mind, Amma. It creates scenarios of its own and then gets me to experience worry, anxiety, guilt, fear and all sorts of other , mostly negative feelings. I understand that, but overcoming it is not easy. Not for me, because you know Amma, that I don't persevere- I give up all too quickly when things don't work out easily.
I badly want to be strong and stable, supporting those in my life, not leaning on them always. Will that ever happen, Amma? I want that very much and I believe it will happen, because you give me all that I want even if it is not as soon as I ask. My love has been supportive of me for so long now. It is time for me to start supporting him.
Thank you for all your blessings, dear Amma.
With love and gratitude,
From your loving daughter,
Vidya
Dear Vidya,
ReplyDeleteYou are indeed stronger than any one that you ever knew in your life! Accept the fact without the guilt feeling first.
Yes, your love needs you badly and please don't let him wait for another decade.
If you honestly and truthfully a). trust in you, b). trust in Amma and c) trust in your love - why fear? only all happiness in life!
Be happy with what you have and don't go to Amma and cry for what you don't have. Amma knows what you deserve and don't.
Trusting in yourself creates strong sense of direction and thinking & doing good destroys the guilt. God bless Vidya. Om Sakthi